I've only been trying to write music lately that I think other people would like.

Ever since I got back from Vegas (the last music convention LMX was a part of), I've had a shattered view of what the music business USED to be. But since people like me (pir83r5) exist, music has taken a new turn in integrating itself into technology. Napster, Morpheus, iMesh, mIRC, iTunes. Programs like these and a shit load more have become the medium for music distribution and discovery. Which not only means that the old ways of playing out to the AR reps are not only increasingly more difficult than they used to be, but it's almost obsolete. Everything you used to need a label or a company to accomplish can mostly be done in the comfort of your new home. Recording (Pro Tools), packaging (any ad in the back of a musicians magazine), promotion (Myspace), and distribution (iTunes, CD Baby). Since you can do it all yourself, all that's left is the money... Can you turn a strong profit on your own?

And that brings me back to where I came in at. After already knowing this stuff, and finally coming to terms with it once I had met with panelists at the convention, I saw what I thought I had to do. If I was gonna pull it off, I had to cater to the market. And even though I didn't want to be a part of the business like that, I subconsciously began thinking like everyone else in the popular scene does. What is hot right now?

When did I start turning pleasure into a job? I only say job because there's a fundamental difference between a job and a career, and jobs suck. I turned something I loved and enjoyed into something I thought I had to do a certain way, and it was horrible to think that I've turned into that. I've put so much pressure on myself to do what I think I’m supposed to do, and I completely forgot that the only way to do it is to do it the way you want it.

If it's not fun and exciting, your doing it wrong.

I'll be taking a passenger seat with music. But I still wanna write with Andrew, no matter what it is.