Panic!

I had a full blown freak out tonight at Monica's Birthday party.

I'm convinced I have some kind of social anxiety that makes me shake and my heart beat faster.

Across from a room full of marriage and relationship, to friends being to drunk, and being paranoid as it is, I couldn't handle. I had to step outside. Overstimulation, I couldn't calm down with all the commotion.

I would handle better if I felt completely comfortable around them. I feel like they're expecting more out of me since i'm dating someone older than me that's their age. Given the things some of them have gone through, it's alot for someone like me to handle. I can't be myself around them.

What's happened to me.