I'll smoke a little. *toke*
I'm finding myself caring what people think of me again, and I guess that's good. I Know it sounds lame to say, but fear is a healthy thing to have. It helps give structure to what you do and don't do. And since i'm afraid of what people may think, i'm becoming more social as of late. For like the past year, i've become more and more anti-social. I think it's cuz i'm not on the stage as much anymore, and i'm not friends with everyone everywhere I go. Even though I Know the people I hang out with or interact with in some situations, I still feel like a stranger to some people. But last night helped me remember what it was like to know everyone around you, whether you want them there or not. To have a history with everyone in a room is an empowering feeling, and I miss that kind of thing. Feeling like i'm in control, in power. Alpha Dog! ARWWOOOO!
I'm gonna let it ride.
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