Farefis now

[20:29] Puking out hate: dude
[20:29] Puking out hate: sooo gay
[20:29] Puking out hate: so very gay
[20:29] monk sez: What.
[20:29] Puking out hate: I just watched a tape of Farefis playing
[20:29] Puking out hate: and I wanted to cry
[20:29] monk sez: From when?
[20:29] Puking out hate: that party at Sids neighbors house
[20:30] Puking out hate: my friend recorded you the entire time
[20:30] monk sez: What about it?
[20:30] monk sez: I kinda wanna se it.
[20:30] Puking out hate: I made Marty watch it with me, he didnt say a word the entire time, and all I could think was "we fucked up sooo bad"
[20:30] monk sez: Wow.
[20:31] Puking out hate: yeah
[20:31] Puking out hate: we lost something big
[20:31] Puking out hate: and its NOT sid
[20:31] monk sez: I guess you know what to do from now on then. :-
[20:31] Puking out hate: eh, yeah
[20:31] Puking out hate: it just sucks
[20:32] Puking out hate: Kyle just gave me that look while we watched it
[20:32] monk sez: Who has the tape?
[20:32] Puking out hate: me
[20:32] Puking out hate: its in my room
[20:32] monk sez: Don't lose it or anything, I wanna see it.
[20:32] Puking out hate: ok
[20:32] Puking out hate: Ill hang onto it
[20:32] Puking out hate: its in a spot I cant loose it
[20:32] monk sez: In your pants?
[20:33] Puking out hate: hahahah
[20:33] Puking out hate: I lose sooooo much stuff in my pants
[20:33] Puking out hate: hahaha
[20:33] monk sez: I lose control in MY pants.
[20:33] Puking out hate: hahahah
[20:33] Puking out hate: thats the best place to lose control
[20:33] monk sez: Damn straight.
[20:33] Puking out hate: hey
[20:33] Puking out hate: just curious
[20:33] Puking out hate: whats the main reasons you left Farefis?
[20:33] Puking out hate: was it us as people?
[20:33] monk sez: Got bored.
[20:34] monk sez: Not really.
[20:34] monk sez: Just the fact I had nothing to show that we were doing something right.
[20:34] Puking out hate: I understand that
[20:34] Puking out hate: me and Kyle had a talk last night
[20:34] Puking out hate: you also helped write our songs
[20:34] Puking out hate: that was another thing that was badass about you
[20:35] monk sez: I play alot of guitar man, heh.
[20:35] Puking out hate: yeah
[20:35] Puking out hate: exactly
[20:35] Puking out hate: Marty can play parts, but he doenst innovate, or creat anything you do
[20:35] Puking out hate: I honestly dont think he can ever fill those shoes
[20:36] monk sez: You don't?
[20:36] Puking out hate: Im not trying to blow your shit up, or anything like that
[20:36] Puking out hate: but yeah, I dont think he ever will
[20:36] Puking out hate: he can walk a path, not make one
[20:36] monk sez: That's one thing I Believe every musician should be able to do in order to be a master of their instrument.
[20:37] Puking out hate: exactly
[20:37] Puking out hate: he cant
[20:37] Puking out hate: and its dragging me and Kyle down
[20:37] Puking out hate: its depressing
[20:37] monk sez: It's like coming to a party. Anyone can go, but what are you gonna bring with you to the festivities to make it better.
[20:37] Puking out hate: yeah
[20:37] Puking out hate: good one
[20:37] monk sez: "I BROUGHT A KEG!"
[20:37] Puking out hate: hahaha
[20:37] monk sez: Then you the fucking man.
[20:37] Puking out hate: hahaha
[20:37] Puking out hate: I brought 5 sexy chicks
[20:38] monk sez: You also would be the man.
[20:38] Puking out hate: hahaha
[20:38] Puking out hate: Marty would bring his daughter
[20:38] Puking out hate: and ask everyone not to be loud
[20:38] Puking out hate: hahaha
[20:38] Puking out hate: diss
[20:38] monk sez: Lol.
[20:38] monk sez: BURN!
[20:38] Puking out hate: Count it!!!
[20:39] Puking out hate: I dont know if he will work out as our permanent drummer
[20:39] Puking out hate: as soon as we get a studio this weekend
[20:39] Puking out hate: this bands going to be taking a big step in a serious way
[20:39] monk sez: Yeah. Released into the wild.
[20:39] Puking out hate: I dont think he can be dedicated
[20:40] Puking out hate: we all need it
[20:40] Puking out hate: everyone in Farefis needs the music
[20:40] Puking out hate: its so fucking gay what happened to our band man
[20:40] monk sez: It's not that big a deal yet.
[20:40] Puking out hate: yeah
[20:41] Puking out hate: its gotten so bad compared to what we where
[20:41] Puking out hate: we havent done shit
[20:41] monk sez: As long as everyone still wants to be Farefis, things will get good.
[20:41] Puking out hate: were teaching Jeremy our songs, he loves it, and hes doing good
[20:41] Puking out hate: but Marty doesnt even know more than 4 songs
[20:41] Puking out hate: Jeremy says its our fault
[20:41] Puking out hate: but I dont think thats the case
[20:41] Puking out hate: hes a big pothead
[20:42] Puking out hate: and drinker
[20:42] monk sez: Does he see what goes on between you guys while your practicing.
[20:42] Puking out hate: what do you mean?
[20:42] monk sez: Why does he think it's your fault.
[20:43] Puking out hate: oh, because he says where bad at teaching him, or we have to high expectaitions
[20:43] Puking out hate: if he cant play the part, he just asks us to change it to something easier
[20:43] Puking out hate: like the chorus in hail
[20:43] Puking out hate: he wanted to get rid of it
[20:43] Puking out hate: because he cant play the tempo
[20:43] Puking out hate: Im like fuck no
[20:43] monk sez: There's an important rule about stuff like that:
[20:44] Puking out hate: yeah
[20:44] monk sez: Don't water down your music to make it playable. If it's good the way it is, why would you dismantle something good.
[20:44] Puking out hate: learn it, and get better
[20:44] monk sez: Exactly.
[20:44] Puking out hate: I told him to either learn it, or just sit there and look dumb
[20:44] monk sez: Man up and learn something harder than what you can play. How else do you get better.
[20:45] Puking out hate: exactly
[20:45] Puking out hate: he seems to think differently
[20:45] Puking out hate: Im sober now
[20:45] Puking out hate: Im not drinking anymore
[20:45] Puking out hate: not for awhile
[20:45] monk sez: Coo.
[20:45] Puking out hate: same with Jason
[20:45] Puking out hate: Kyles just himself, and his voice and commitment are great so no complaints there
[20:47] monk sez: Hey. Can you check something out for me?
[20:47] Puking out hate: sure
[20:47] monk sez: http://www.myspace.com/reburnandtheskidmarks
[20:47] monk sez: Listen to I fucked Your Dog.
[20:47] Puking out hate: ok
[20:47] Puking out hate: hahaha

Evaluation: Quick write up of my last few months

Hmm... Well let's see here:

     I came to the conclusion at one point that girls/women/females were all pretty lame. I've seen how they work, the games they played with people, they're cries for attention, the works. Don't like them. I just look at everyone as people now, it just makes things easier to sort out. But sometimes i'll probably slip I guess.

     I left Farefis a while ago, mostly cuz of the lack of drive and motivation that I need to see with people when it comes to something that requires a team effort. Sid just got lazy and I was always diagnosing Dustin with terminal ADD. If you can do that kind of thing. So to not totally fuck them I gave them a month's notice for last minute changes they might have wanted to make. Didn't really help; so I left and found them another drummer that was looking to get back in to the style of music that they were playing kinda. Kinda style I mean. So I came by and checked them out when they were practicing, showed the new guy a bit of what the drums were about (cuz they were a bit more involved then a normal drum beat) and jammed with the guys just for the hell of it. I can't wait till their next show.

     I met a lady named Cassie at one of Farefis's last little house party shows for Angela's birthday party when she came with Trey. For a little while I kept trying to ask her if she was like available, and then eventually went for it. She was the exception on my view with females: She's the only cool one. We've been together almost 3 months, and i'm totally not letting her go anywhere.

     [content edit] Tour came and was the time of my life... again. I belong on the road playing music and partying my ass off until I wake up the next day in some random city I don't know having to get up to go to the next city.

     I got a job working at Pegasus Solutions, which i'm at right now. But i'm still training until next week. It will be at that point, I can officially not use the internet at work for leisure purposes. But that's okay. I'm still thinking about getting into another band, but something more along the style I want to play and not this 'standard' metal shit. I kinda wanna bring back the feel of Mr. Bungle. Unrestraint, unhinge music: Kinda just throwing all kinds of styles in. I mean I can write a radio friendly album to make it big so I can write my disco/jazz/metal/funk album.

     I'm almost thinking that's what you have to do these days, you need to appeal to everyone. But you can't appeal to everyone with your radio friendly song. So make an album the masses want to hear, then make an album the metalheads wanna hear, and so on. But the chances of me finding the people to put that together with me are not in my favor that I know of. Sure some people I know are capable of it, but none of them wanna take the approach I want. Even though i'm sure if I explained it to them they'd know it would work. BRING ME THOSE PEOPLE!

     As for today: The only thing i've eaten today is a bag of M&Ms, i'm out of gas and 20 miles from home, and i'm broke. I get paid tomorrow though, but I don't know for how long... Hopefull all of last week. I even got paid for the holiday! My finger's hurt from typing all day...

Fuck you.